( there's no visual component to the Communion, but nevertheless there's the impression of a sly grin — one that's well-tempered, given their mutual situation in the wake of what had happened in venera, but one that exists nonetheless.
regardless: for the rest of eustace's message, there's little more than a nonverbal assent... though that doesn't seem to be all. makoto's presence lingers like a figure standing uncertainly in a doorway. there is something he wanted to say to the man, something only further exacerbated by his offer, and he currently grapples with the dual fact that this doesn't feel like the perfect time to ask, but also that it would only get more strange to do so the longer he delayed.
so he continues: ) You didn't need to intervene in the way that you did. ( something contorts in makoto; something uncomfortable and alien, and as estranged from mortals as dealing with the demon could sometimes feel, the most recognizable tinge to it is one of guilt. it's not that he feels remorse for what he did to estinien. he doesn't even necessarily regret inciting the Innocent (he's fairly certain his fate would've ended up the same regardless). but eustace had seemingly been trying to help him, and he'd shouldered him away to try to satiate his own foolish indignation. it's very characteristic of him, sure, but it doesn't mean he can't have his qualms. eustace is not J; his aid hadn't felt like just another way to control him.
part of him wants to ask, why? but the rest of him concedes that it's a question that's two parts foolish and two parts ungrateful. so he discards it, instead settling on another resolve. ) So I am in your debt. Don't concern yourself with me, and instead see if you can't think up a way that I can repay it.
( it's just about as cordial of a "thank you" as you can expect to get from a demon, really. )
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( there's no visual component to the Communion, but nevertheless there's the impression of a sly grin — one that's well-tempered, given their mutual situation in the wake of what had happened in venera, but one that exists nonetheless.
regardless: for the rest of eustace's message, there's little more than a nonverbal assent... though that doesn't seem to be all. makoto's presence lingers like a figure standing uncertainly in a doorway. there is something he wanted to say to the man, something only further exacerbated by his offer, and he currently grapples with the dual fact that this doesn't feel like the perfect time to ask, but also that it would only get more strange to do so the longer he delayed.
so he continues: ) You didn't need to intervene in the way that you did. ( something contorts in makoto; something uncomfortable and alien, and as estranged from mortals as dealing with the demon could sometimes feel, the most recognizable tinge to it is one of guilt. it's not that he feels remorse for what he did to estinien. he doesn't even necessarily regret inciting the Innocent (he's fairly certain his fate would've ended up the same regardless). but eustace had seemingly been trying to help him, and he'd shouldered him away to try to satiate his own foolish indignation. it's very characteristic of him, sure, but it doesn't mean he can't have his qualms. eustace is not J; his aid hadn't felt like just another way to control him.
part of him wants to ask, why? but the rest of him concedes that it's a question that's two parts foolish and two parts ungrateful. so he discards it, instead settling on another resolve. ) So I am in your debt. Don't concern yourself with me, and instead see if you can't think up a way that I can repay it.
( it's just about as cordial of a "thank you" as you can expect to get from a demon, really. )